Thursday, October 12, 2006 @ 5:23 PM
I AM SO DAMN CLUMSY ! while i was walking to the field i look down..thinking hard why i am so useless... i dunno wad to help to build the structure...everybody have their own role... BUT me ! WHY mi ! where i go nobody wants mi to help...maybe I AM REALLY VERY VERY USELESS AND NOISY... i wan to be SLTC instructor but what to do...i dunno any tieing at all... i am willing to learn...BUT anybody willing to teach mi ?? answer is NO ! as i was thinking...my nose nod onto the wood....OUCH ! haix...thats not the biggest problem...i am jus thinking why i am so uncapable...morning i heard tat mr lee actually doesnt wan to mi to go for junyuan primary camp...but syabiqah persuade him to let mi go...and this news make mi sad....i am really really goin to FREAKOUT ! i realised i am jus a small little noisy plus loud and useless girl in redSHIRT...when i quiet... mr lee and mr david will start to say abt mi why u so sad blahblah in front of everybody...AND THIS DOESNT FEEL GOOD.... when i am noisy.... they will start to ask mi to quiet....and they start to say in front of pple about mi....AND THIS DOESNT FEEL GOOD TOO....in the music room today i was veri tired....i feel dizzy i think becos i stay under the sun too long and i jus hit my nose...so i sit in a corner to rest...mr lee was saying that.... SOME PPLE EVERYTIME GIVING COMMENTS...BUT HE OR SHE DOESNT WAN TO GIF SOLUTION TO SOLVE....and mr david was looking at mi...and it means tat refering to mi....OMG...i was like finding a hole and hid inside and cry ! ANOTHER thing make mi happy is tat...i goin for junyuan primary camp....but i was not happy that...syabiqah says tat the oni confirm grp leader in a team is mi and ruban... wad does this mean... they are scared that i will spoil the camp ? and wanna tie mi to another guy who can control mi ? i dunno wad to do...
tis' the way
soul searching
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