Tuesday, March 20, 2007 @ 9:45 PM
To you i'm just an useless freak...
You never even give me a chance...
And i am sick of proving it to you that i can do it..
Is it my atitiude ?
but did you see the serious side of me ?
NO !
& you jump into conclusion...
i'm very grateful of what you have done for me...
and i even tell my friends that you are so good...
and they even think i'm in love with you...
cos i never praise a person that much...
when they talk bad about you..
i used to side you saying somethings good about you...
you will never know what have we done behind your back...
what we have done is forgiving you...
again and again...
when huiping told me what you say about me...
at that moment my heart is aching...
so many years...
all this is nothing ?
and this ache will never stop aching..
when i see you...
it start to ache..
too much...and too much that i can't forgive it...
what is this for ?
i even asked her to repeat...
at that moment..
i almost cry...
everything gone down the drain because of your words...
when i'm angry i will never talk to that person...
and i will never...
i will just walk away quitely..
this is too much..
you are not the one being hurt thats why you don't know..
we used to joke...
and every word you say i take it seriously...
not in a joke mode..
is in a serious mode...
now seeing you is in a silent mode...
i can't believe that i can forgive you this time...
eventough i try it didn't works...
THIS IS NOT HATE...
IT IS SOME KIND OF FEELING THAT IS INDESCRIBLE...
NOBODY WILL UNDERSTAND IT...
and i will face it this way...
''silent mode''
if you found out that i trying to avoid you by not toking to you...
please don't be sorry till you really change....
please don't scold me for giving you atitiude..
this is not my atitiude...
is just that i really don't know how to face you..
no sorry i just want to see you change and i will be myself again..
please don't purposely give me a chance to prove it to you..
cos there's enough of proving...
and i hate people who pity me...
don't pity me by giving what i want...
this is so ''FAKE''...
tis' the way
soul searching
SAY HI TO ME.
I'M harmless.
Come with me and you will never goes wrong.
I always do self-proclaim, so you get what i mean?
DON'T DESOLATE ME.
DO PERKED ME.
DON'T PONDER, ASK ME WHAT YOU WANT.
REMEMBER MY NAME. MY BIRTHDAY.
I'M THE DEVIL.
"Work hard to achieve, don't procrastinate!"