Tuesday, May 13, 2008 @ 9:23 PM
This just thoughts coming to and fro to my mind..
Tonight, I'm blinded.
I hate being too kind-hearted..Cause, i will not be repay but instead being insulted and having lots of problem..I shall not even try being nice to anyone..I've learn from my bold mistake...THIS IS LIFE..I simply hate being neglected.If you just realize,The more beckoning, the more they think i'm talking nonsense..No point listening.I hate having relationship within human..I'm sucks at it..It's a god damn thing,It will cause the above burden..I'm totally thrown beyond the line.If i can't even manage friendship,I think boys out there,can start saving energy and stop waving at me..And i want to emphasis again..NO LOVE MEANS NO LOVE..STOP PESTERING, IT MAKES ME PUKE..IF THIS STILL GOES ON..I DON'T KNOW WHAT THE HELL WILL HAPPEN..
IT WILL MAKE ME FREAK OUT ANYTIME..
I think you guys know who i'm refering to..Go talk some sense to him..I just hope all this will wake him up..Stop wasting time please..I'm not making your life difficult here nor being heartless..I just hate that feeling you gave!You just can't understand what i'm inside out,Cause i myself don't even know..
I love myself..
Therefore,
I want myself to know my own self better than others..
I had all,And i can't stand it anymore..I just feel like stopping all the torture God gave..but it takes time..Once again,it makes me don't feel like staying anymore..the pain is inside out..You might be saying it,In whatever way you want..but spare a thought..how would you feel if i do this to you?!Whats in your heart now?I don't know..I'm not a mind reader..
I just feel my heart aching,
I'm NOT angry nor happy,
I'm just utterly disappointed,
to have you beside me!
Now i need a place,To fly like a bird.Unleash all my everything!Say something won't you?I'm gonna get my mind all blown up..
Because of you.
I'm turning round and round now..
Because of you.
Sometimes i do ask myself,do you think is worth doing it?I try reaching out with faith,What i get?DISAPPOINTMENT?JOY?
I'm just hiding behind my real self..But we know it takes time to realize our mistake..Looking better in time..
I gave you love, all i get is pretend.
Impossible to find.
tis' the way
soul searching
SAY HI TO ME.
I'M harmless.
Come with me and you will never goes wrong.
I always do self-proclaim, so you get what i mean?
DON'T DESOLATE ME.
DO PERKED ME.
DON'T PONDER, ASK ME WHAT YOU WANT.
REMEMBER MY NAME. MY BIRTHDAY.
I'M THE DEVIL.
"Work hard to achieve, don't procrastinate!"